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So there's an feeling of intense loneliness, as you figure out you're probably not going to see him for a long time days  If he makes you incredibly happy then why were you up all night crying?

Thats simple.  You love him so much. You're hurt and want to avoid him for as long as you can.. but you know you're going to give in sooner or later. After all, You do really love him.

Its up to you how you fight this one, can you stand to loose him? or will you keep fighting until you can't?

You can't loose him, he's your air. You can't live without him.

He's cute beautiful =]